In The House of Pain

[Nadja Shadowheart Uta]

Nadja didn't go to the home that she shared with her husband, No instead she went to her personal house. A small one bedroom that no light could enter unless her or Shinda wanted it.

Nadja has a traditional Japanese bed roll that is tucked into the corner with the goddess. Both of her normally different colored eyes are crimson with glowing amethyst pentagrams in them. She is shaking.

The goddess of pain and pleasure is sadly just as insane as when she was born the goddess of insanity and Chaos long before meeting her husband. She rocks back and forth, the house is trashed and every once in a while, the hundreds of minial gods that wander Baile Na Deithe could hear her screaming for something to get away from her. They were used to it. It was one of these gods, Rini, a tiny little thing that egged on stalkers, rapists, and other creatures who felt the darker side of love who was also Nadja's younger half sister walks over to Shinda, "She is at it again." She holds out her hand. The tiny goddess wanted cake for anything she did for another god.

Nadja cries shaking still, "Let down... Dark... let down Lux... Lux he should hate me. Lux I am sorry... NO please I'm sorry. I was just doing... I understand, but... I... yes Lux." The goddess was hallucinating a part of the mental condition that she was afflicted with. Nadja bites into her wrist leaving a huge hole. She covers her left hand in blood from her right wrist and starts to draw on the walls.

The paintings end up being of five males. One was Honor over his picture written in Shadow script is the word King. Shinda was next with 'True Love'. Dark with 'As One' Lux with 'Master'. The last one was of a mortal it was a two sided picture a man with his back against a dragon, above him wad the word 'Fear'. Nadja had long ago taught both Shinda and Dark Shadow script and because of their connection Lux knew it as well.

[Lux]

Lux had been bored recently and neither training with shinda or pestering Dark had brought him enjoyment, so he sought the only other god in Baile Na Deithe that he was friends with. Which was Nadja. He had heard from Rini that she was back in town and at her place instead of her house she had shaired with Shinda. Unfortunately Lux was out a piece of cake for the info. He said he didn't have any and wrote her an IOU. She was adorable and enjoyed her company but to him she was a complete asshole. Like for real.

Lux walked up To Nadja's door and knocked on it waitng for a moment, singing to himself " 'Cause I'm Slim Shady, yes I'm the real Shady
All you other Slim Shadys are just imitating
So won't the real Slim Shady please stand up,
Please stand up, please stand up?." He eventually opened the door and walked in. "Hey Nadja. I'm bored, wanna go see a movie? And by that I mean I want to fuck in a movie the...." Lux looked at what she had done and was shocked. "The fuck Nadja!?" He recognized the shadow script and the words. As proud as he was of the "Master". He ran to her and spun her around seeing the change in her eyes. "Yo Nadja, Lux here. You in there, you have a collect call from the 90's they said they want their cheesy eyes back. Im here o line two and want your sanity back."

[Nadja Shadowheart Uta]

Nadja was surprised to say the least when Lux spun her to face him. She blinks a few times and look into another corner then back. She does this several times. Then she keeps her eyes on the real Lux, "I'm sorey. I'm so sorry I've been the worst to you... I have let you down in everyway I can think of." She looks into a corner, "That... is what you want?" She nods her jaw shivering. She takes out a knife that seems to be made out of pure light, even the light shining on her flesh showed burning. The smell of burning flesh in the room.

[Lux]

Well to start off lets just say Lux knocked that knife shit right out of Nadja's. Then looked at her in the eyes, "Nadja, you haven't done anything wrong im not disappointed in you." Lux looks over to the corner "Are you saying your sanity is in the corner, cause that is fucking insane too." Lux the had an idea, not a brilliant one mind you but he would take anything. "Nadja, if you truly are sorry and for serious don't want to disappoint me. Then you will quit this shit so we can work this out together, and I will be disappointed if you don't."

[Kage no Shinda Uta]

The wargod look up at Rini and smiled. "Hi Rini-san. Ill play with you when  i help with your sister okay? He vanished with a bow and appeared before the two with an uneventful -poof- and studied the woman. He was not as livid as Lux but then he was very VERY used to this side of the goddess."Nadja, im here, Lux." he nodded to the man."How is she holding up?" He sighed softly. "Nadja, i need you to focus."

[Nadja Shadowheart Uta]

Nadja rocks on her heels, she looks from Lux to Shinda and back. "I... don't want you to hate me Lux." She says sitting down much like a child who got scolded. Nadja looks up at Shinda, "Am I in trouble?" She asks before looking back at Lux, "What kind of person abandons someone she likes for 200 years... I just... I was doing so good staying so... good to Shinda... I think, but then... I... I saw you and I loved you in a way I couldn't explain." Nadja then looks at the floor, "I'll tell him shut up Vincent!" Vincent was a personality of Nadja's one that played off of Nadja trying to break her and Shinda up almost constantly though lately he had been very quiet toward Shinda, his rage directed at Lux and neither Shinda nor Lux knew about it... Albeit Lux didn't know about Vincent at all. Her eyes change color, Nadja's eyes never had pupils they always had the pentagram, the pentagram was now white and the rest of her eyes including the normally white part is black. A clear indicator to Shinda that Vincent had taken over. "She set you and Elysia up so that she could get over you. THEN she got jealous... she sent the wish into the verse that you and Elysia would find a reason to break up. Rini heard her... so Rini helped." Nadja fights for control eventually gaining it back. She holds her legs close, "I... had time to stop it... I had time but I froze. I realized what I had done... I realized that I had messed up. That Elysia was being blackmailed because of me. You have every right to hate me Lux... I didn't... I didn't mean for it to happen that way. When I gained control again... it was too late... that was when I got you. So see that is why you are going to hate me..." Nadja was crying she looks at Shinda, "I am... as Gabe said... I am a bad... horrible... evil person..."

[Lux]

Lux looked at shinda and told him her current state. He didn't look worried, more concerned than anything. Then Nadja spoke of him and why she had ignored him so long. It was a boost to his ego but it also pissed him off. He didn't even notice her pupils change. Eventually he just reached a point where he snapped and slapped her. Not enough to hurt mind you, just enough for the shock to quit her babbling. "First off," he said annoyed "Quit this self pity bull shit. I'm not mad at you, and trust me your not a terrible person. Do you know how many girls look at me and fall in love? This shit is normal and I couldn't care less about this bull shit with Rini and Evelyn. Just pick your self of the god damn floor, get over it, and deal with the fact your the only one still worrying about it."

[Kage no Shinda Uta]

Shinda remarkably, didnt object to what Lux did. He knew Nadja needed someone being tough with her right now. "She goes through bouts of insanity Lux. She is never to be let alone like this but she is never to be left to wallow. she may launch into a fit of anger if this emotional state gets no response. Its her psyche struggling to gain control in some way. Nadja, listen to him stop this. I can send lux home and take you to bed. Or he can join us but no more of this moping..youre a goddess"

[Nadja Shadowheart Uta]

Nadja places her hand against her face and for a moment she looks like she is going to be okay, but then she shakes her head, "What does being a goddess have to do with shit? I still have emotions... I still have guilt I GOT MY BEST FRIEND RAPED!" Nadja holds her legs close to her body. Then looks at Lux, then Shinda. She wanted to destroy something, anger bubbled, and then suddenly she just kind of, shakes her head. She wipes her tears and looks at the two all over again. "I am a bad person Lux. I am a monster. I like it though." She smiles, an eery smile. She was switching through personalities faster than her body could keep up with. Even the body of a goddess. Her psyche finally snaps. Nadja just sits there for a while. Then a look of thought crosses her face, "Dark... is in a coma.. he could... die... the spark of insanity... it's mine... I gave it to him... it's calling for me. I have to wake Dark up. I do not want to be the goddess of insanity again Shinda... I can't... I can't do it again. I lost who I was... who I could be... I lost so much of our life and I almost killed Seiiki"

[Lux]

Lux stood up and headed towards the door standing by it. He looked at Nadja. "Well im not the kind of guy to sit and do nothing. " lux was rearring and ready to go but then realized something. "Hey. I might not be able to do much, but Im here for ya so lets go."

[Kage no Shinda Uta]

Shinda nodded solemnly. "Very well Nadja, im going to go find Seiiki and keep an eye on him so you dont have to worry. Lux" he met the man's gaze. "Im entrusting her to you for this as i have to stay behind and watch things in her steed, Nadja, remember that no matter what you do, you have our love."

[Nadja Shadowheart Uta]

Nadja stands up quietly, she nods to Shinda and smiles weakly, she wasn't quite herself yet, but there was a good chance that wouldn't happen until they woke Dark up. She smiles at Lux, "Thank you." She says before following him.